Life can get busy. Sometimes it takes a concentrated effort to do the things I like most. Writing is one of those things. I love to write, but it takes effort, and when the kids go to bed on most days, watching a movie requires far less of my effort than writing does. This is strange to me, because I enjoy writing. Many times I think about things to write during the day, only to forget them somewhere between the drive home and the kids' goodnight prayers. If things that I enjoy doing can get set aside for weeks...how much greater is the danger of neglect regarding the things that I do not enjoy?
On November 29th, 2010, Erin and I welcomed our third son to the family. Since that time our life has been a roller coaster of emotion, both good and bad. Anyone who has had a child knows that the first two months are both trying and joyful. We were able to experience an added element to the situation, because Erin has not been well. At first we were not concerned, but the problem continually got worse. Several doctor trips resulted in Erin being put on a medicine to try and force her body to correct the problem. Basically, this medicine was going to send her into labor...and it pretty much wiped her out for a day and a half. During that time I learned some things about my wife.
I have always said that I could never be a stay-at-home parent; until yesterday it was mostly just lip-service to encourage Erin. Friday was my day to be Mr. Mom. Three kids, all under the age of three, all day...just me. Also, there was Erin in the bedroom in pretty severe pain that I had to keep my eye on. It may shock you to know that this is the first time that I had been "in control" of all three of our children by myself for an extended period of time.
I discovered quickly the little things that I did not know how to do. For example: Swaddle Donovan correctly so that he didn't break free of his blanket while he was struggling not to fall asleep. I also had to learn all of the little sacrifices that I pay no attention to on a normal basis. Like when I caught my breath and warmed myself some pizza up in the microwave for lunch - completely forgetting that Dylan and Ronin needed to eat as well...and that meant that I had to get them something. Before I could even sit down I had two children clawing at my legs for the food I was carrying. After they had finished eating the pizza I made for myself, I went to eat something of my own, and the baby woke up to eat.
It was literally a never-ending parade of diaper-changing, feeding, juice-filling, crowd controlling, laundry-doing, toy-removing, and aspirin-taking.
Around seven-thirty last night, Erin emerged from the bedroom for the first time saying that she was feeling a little better. Dylan brought me his cup and began chanting juice, and when I got up to fill it, Ronin started screaming because he wasn't getting any. I told him to bring me his cup, which resulted in him running in a circle crying looking for it. I looked all over the house before I realized that I had picked it up and put it in the sink earlier in the day. Both boys were practically pulling my pants down while I was trying to fill their cups. They were in the way of the refrigerator, they cried when I told them to move, they cried when I didn't fill their cups fast enough.
I had reached my breaking point, and I almost started crying. All I could do was laugh because I was about to go crawl under my bed and cry myself to sleep. Erin helped me put the boys to bed, and I put my tail between my legs and retreated to the shower. I was more worn out than I had been in a long time...and in the moments of peace and refreshment that the shower offered I had some time to reflect.
My wonderful wife deals with this on a daily basis. I don't know how she does it, but she does. The little things that made my day so difficult, she knows them by heart. The sacrifices that seemed so unapparent to me - she makes them constantly without complaining. The effort that she puts forth in a day astonishes me and leaves me to wonder if I have ever put that much effort into anything. She also works during the day. She does medical transcribing, a job that requires great attention to detail, while balancing three children. She is also the one that gave birth to Donovan only two months ago...and her body still has not recovered from that. As a final act, she gets me to deal with when I come home from work.
I picked up all of the toys in our house so many times yesterday that it made me sick. Regardless, when the kids went to bed, the living room looked like a mess because they had been playing. I did more loads of laundry yesterday than I did my entire college career, but at the end of the day there was still a pile of the clothes we had all been wearing. I did dishes three times during the day, but at the end, there were still bottles and juice-cups and plates and pans in the sink. I took out the trash, but by night fall there was a decent pile of diapers, apple cores, and banana peels already filling up a second one.
And Erin does this everyday...by herself.
I go to work each day and put forth my best for my employers. However, I guarantee that I have never put forth the sort of above-and-beyond, selfless effort that my wife displays on a daily basis. Maybe that says something about me, but I am thinking it says far more about the woman I share my life with.
God help me if I am ever tempted to question the toys on the floor when I come home from work, or the dishes in the sink, or the clothes in the hamper, or my exhausted wife's seemed disinterest in me. I was ready to quit after 9 hours...and I didn't have medical transcribing...and I didn't make dinner, McDonald's did.
Sometime I can't summon the effort to sit down and do something I love...Erin summons effort each day that I can only imagine possessing. She is amazing...and I love her.
I am so ready for work on Monday.
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Hollow Cycle
Crumble to pieces and completely fall apart: over the same rock broken again and again.
Gasping for life, choking on death, frantic for rescue, but failure’s the current…strong, relentless.
Thrown upon the shore: battered, frightened, disillusioned, remorseful, ashamed, but resolute.
Strength to stand is gathered; strength to move is gradually coming. Must move forward, away.
Danger falls with the tide and shadow is cast over the memory of the very real danger.
Giant rocks appear above the surface…knowing their location allows for distance and security.
The beach is a beautiful place, so warm and inviting. The sunrise is awesome; paralyzing.
The strength to move becomes a desire to stay and dwell in this calm, serene and safe glory.
Tides are rising…already the jagged rocks are disappearing, waves breaking against them.
Water touches the feet, but the scenery and comfort are captivating.
Crumble to pieces and completely fall apart, over the same rock broken again and again.
Gasping for life, choking on death, frantic for rescue, but failure is the current…strong, relentless.
Thrown upon the shore: battered, frightened, disillusioned, remorseful, ashamed…
With a new resolve to stand and then to move…move forward…away.
But danger falls with the tide and shadow is cast over the memory of very real danger.
And we stay, and we fail.
*Analogy of temptation, and then sin. The cycle that we often find ourselves in. Sometimes we never learn. God help us.
The Seeker
Despite our best warnings, you hurdle the fence; we watch as you struggle for meaning on the other side.
Not quite knowing when it ceases to be our place to protect you from yourself, we hesitate as you falter.
As one we reach out to comfort and to heal, but your pride overwhelms us and we are turned back.
You know what you know and you continue your search among the dead and buried,
Still hoping to uncover something that may be revived…thinking it unchanged and savable…but we know better…and so do you.
You ignore the stench arising from your actions (nothing good…nothing good); we can barely breathe.
You are blinded by rage, passion, and discontent – driven to revive flames that have long been ashes; dust.
Frantic and delusional, you wander trails long ago forsaken. You hope to God they now lead somewhere else.
You know, and we know…yet you continue to search among the dead and buried.
Mesmerized by the thought that something may be revived…thinking it savable…but we know better; you used to.
*A short writing about one who scours the past for a better future. The “dead and buried” refers to the graveyard that is our past. It is important to remember that things, once done, cannot be undone. Obviously, then, the “stench” refers to the smell of decay one would encounter when digging up a grave. Decaying flesh is an offending stench indeed. The comparison here is that the one digging ignores the “smells” that are so obvious to everyone else. He is delusional to the point of actually thinking he will find the contents of the grave exactly as he left it, or perhaps, that some “life” may actually remain in what has been buried. The analogy behind the “trails long ago forsaken” is much the same. Blindly, the seeker hopes that choices he made in the past can be changed (or forgotten), resulting in different results. Scattered throughout are glimpses into the hurt and confusion that this search casts upon friends and family members – as this is written ‘by’ them.
Monday, November 22, 2010
One for me, tattoo for you.
Last week I received a wonderful gift. The holiday season is full of giving and receiving (and by holiday season I mean: Thanksgiving - New Year). We are having a baby in a week, and so some of our Christmas gifts are coming early. Like most young couples with children, the object of our yearning is most often the almighty dollar, because there never seems to be enough to go around.
After we put some of our gift away in savings and got some presents for the kids, I chose to use some of my early Christmas gift to get a tattoo. Well, four of them, actually. I already had two of them: Ronin's name on my left shoulder, and Erin's name on my left forearm. Now, I have Dylan and Donovan's names above and beneath Ronin's as appropriate. I also have the word 'AWAKE' tattooed on my right forearm. Underneath that is a tattoo that says 'Rom. 13:11-14'. I will explain that in a minute.
I have received varying responses to my tattoos, and I want to share my view on them so that there is no confusion.
There is no doubt that I was taught growing up that ear piercings for boys and tattoos were wrong. However, just like in previous generations, I am finding little Scripture to back up the teaching. For example: generations before mine were taught that women should never wear pants. When my parents were my second grade Sunday School teachers, they had to sign something saying that they would not go to the movie theater. So through time we have discovered that plenty of things on our list of right and wrong was simply that: a part of OUR list.
What were the most common things I heard about tattoos growing up? A) your body is the temple of Holy Ghost, B) satanic and bad people have them, C) tattoo parlors are not Christian places, D) it is a form of self-mutilation.
Let me attack these issues in reverse order. Eating at McDonald's is a form of self-mutilation. So is getting one's ear pierced, but women have been doing that for ages with no apparent issue. Did you know that exercising is self-mutilation because you are actually tearing your muscles down so that they rebuild stronger? How about an example from the Bible. The most epic form of self-mutilation I can find: God gave Samson the power to commit suicide in order to get vengeance. Don't believe me? Check out Judges 16:28-30. Here is a snippet of Samson's final prayer: "strengthen me, I pray thee, only this once, O God, that I may be at once avenged of the Philistines for my two eyes." And you know the story, God granted his request and the house came tumbling down killing more people in his death than in his entire life. Does getting a tattoo hurt? Yeah it does. But so does eating too much and running on the treadmill. Here is something to chew on...standing up for Christ hurts sometimes too.
The idea that tattoo parlors are un-Christian places is probably accurate. If you have ever been in one to view the pages and pages of tattoo pictures they have, you understand that you probably shouldn't look through them again. But what constitutes a "Christian" place? Does your favorite restaurant have a bar section? All seven of my favorite restaurants do. Do I drink? Nope. Do I go to the restaurant and eat the awesomeness that is Olive Garden? Yeah, I do. Does your local movie theater show movies that a Christian shouldn't see? I guarantee they do...mine does. Do I still go to the theater to see other movies? Not really, because I can't afford it, but when we have money, yeah, we hit up the theater. So, when I walk into a tattoo parlor and I hand the artist a printout of what I want on me, it is no different than walking past the bar in a restaurant to my seat where I tell the waitress, "No, we don't drink. I do not want to sample your wine," or when I walk past the theater showing an inappropriate movie as I head toward the one showing Toy Story 3. Seriously, folks, your local Walmart is dirtier and more inappropriate than a tattoo parlor. If you don't believe me check out http://www.peopleofwalmart.com/.
Satanic and bad people do have tattoos. There is no denying it. I would dare say that in the past the vast majority of tattooees were less than friendly types. Remember when playing cards was a sin because the only people using them were in casinos and bars? Satanic people have a bible too, and they read it and practice what it says. It was written by Anton LaVey. Trust me, I have seen it and read it. Does that stop me from reading my Bible? No way. It is a bible, but it is not the same as my Bible. Just like my tattoos aren't the same as a bad person's tattoos. I think that is the big difference, and leads me right into my next point.
My body is the temple of the Holy Spirit. When I received Christ my body became rightfully His property. Over the years I have heard this verse used to tell Christians that all kinds of things are sinful. From the aforementioned pants on women and piercings, to tattoos and certain types of clothing. Most people totally disregard the fact that in context this verse is talking about sexual perversions and Paul is literally flabbergasted by it all and says, "WHAT!!!!!!!!??????????" As if to say, 'do you guys seriously not understand that your body is God's and you shouldn't use it that way!' But allow us to wrench the verse out of context (since it is hardly EVER used in context) and apply it to tattoos. No one should get a tattoo because that is putting graffiti on God's body. Now let's apply it to piercings. No one should get piercings because that is adding decoration on God's body. Now let's apply it to make-up. No one should wear make-up because that is making an improvement (usually) on God's body. Now let's apply it to hair cuts. No one should get hair cuts because that is altering God's body. Now let's get straight-up redonkulous and apply it to clothes...maybe we shouldn't wear them because we don't want to cover up God's glorious design? Before you massacre me, I understand that other portions of Scripture state the importance of proper garments. I was using that as an illustration to show the lunacy and the natural progression that comes from using that verse as a high horse.
Also, could someone please step up and show me one example in the Bible where the temple wasn't highly decorated? For Pete's peppers people, the Temple of Solomon would make the most lavish Catholic Church appear rundown.
So, I think it boils down to this: The Glory of God. Does what I do with my body glorify God? It is the same with everything. Does what I do with my time, money, emotions, glorify God? I think that my body does glorify God. My most important roles in this life are as a Father and a Husband. I have the names of my children on me...just like carrying a picture, the tattoos are a constant reminder that I am a father. I even put them in Japanese so that people can ask about them and I get a chance to talk about my kids. I have the name of my wife tattooed on my arm where everyone can see it...where I can constantly see it. Why? Because I am a husband and my heart belongs to Erin and I want everyone to know it. Sure, I wear a wedding ring, but men with wedding rings have affairs all the time because you can take them off. I can't remove my wife's name from my view, or from the view of someone else. That is how I want it.
Those of you who know me well know that for the past few years I have struggled greatly in my Christian life. This past June, when God started to get change my heart and we began attending Bible Baptist Church, I kept telling Erin, "I feel like I am finally awake. I feel like I have been walking asleep in my Christianity for so long...I am awake and things finally make sense." If I were to tell you how far my life had slipped, you would be shocked. I am shocked to remember it. And you know what, I fell before and I know that it is possible for me to fall again. And trust me, I never want to go down that road again. So God led me to some verses in Romans.
"And that, knowing the time, that now it is high time to awake out of sleep: for now is our salvation nearer than when we believed. The night is far spent, the day is at hand: let us therefore cast off the works of darkness, and let us put on the armour of light. Let us walk honestly, as in the day; not in rioting and drunkeness, not in chambering and wantonness, not in strife and envying. But put ye one the Lord Jesus Christ, and make not provision for the flesh, to fulfill the lusts thereof." Rom. 13:11-14
You know what? God woke me up. God changed my life. I need a testament in my life to that fact. I want to set up a marker in my life. I want a constant reminder that says: Hey, you're awake now buddy, things are different. Jesus made a difference, and you know the other road well.
I have it on my arm, where I can see it every single day for the rest of my life. I have already had the opportunity to share my story with two people at work.
You may not like tattoos...you may not like earrings...you may not like movie theaters, for all I know you may not like me, but I wanted to share what my thoughts were on a subject that has recently become dear to me.
After we put some of our gift away in savings and got some presents for the kids, I chose to use some of my early Christmas gift to get a tattoo. Well, four of them, actually. I already had two of them: Ronin's name on my left shoulder, and Erin's name on my left forearm. Now, I have Dylan and Donovan's names above and beneath Ronin's as appropriate. I also have the word 'AWAKE' tattooed on my right forearm. Underneath that is a tattoo that says 'Rom. 13:11-14'. I will explain that in a minute.
I have received varying responses to my tattoos, and I want to share my view on them so that there is no confusion.
There is no doubt that I was taught growing up that ear piercings for boys and tattoos were wrong. However, just like in previous generations, I am finding little Scripture to back up the teaching. For example: generations before mine were taught that women should never wear pants. When my parents were my second grade Sunday School teachers, they had to sign something saying that they would not go to the movie theater. So through time we have discovered that plenty of things on our list of right and wrong was simply that: a part of OUR list.
What were the most common things I heard about tattoos growing up? A) your body is the temple of Holy Ghost, B) satanic and bad people have them, C) tattoo parlors are not Christian places, D) it is a form of self-mutilation.
Let me attack these issues in reverse order. Eating at McDonald's is a form of self-mutilation. So is getting one's ear pierced, but women have been doing that for ages with no apparent issue. Did you know that exercising is self-mutilation because you are actually tearing your muscles down so that they rebuild stronger? How about an example from the Bible. The most epic form of self-mutilation I can find: God gave Samson the power to commit suicide in order to get vengeance. Don't believe me? Check out Judges 16:28-30. Here is a snippet of Samson's final prayer: "strengthen me, I pray thee, only this once, O God, that I may be at once avenged of the Philistines for my two eyes." And you know the story, God granted his request and the house came tumbling down killing more people in his death than in his entire life. Does getting a tattoo hurt? Yeah it does. But so does eating too much and running on the treadmill. Here is something to chew on...standing up for Christ hurts sometimes too.
The idea that tattoo parlors are un-Christian places is probably accurate. If you have ever been in one to view the pages and pages of tattoo pictures they have, you understand that you probably shouldn't look through them again. But what constitutes a "Christian" place? Does your favorite restaurant have a bar section? All seven of my favorite restaurants do. Do I drink? Nope. Do I go to the restaurant and eat the awesomeness that is Olive Garden? Yeah, I do. Does your local movie theater show movies that a Christian shouldn't see? I guarantee they do...mine does. Do I still go to the theater to see other movies? Not really, because I can't afford it, but when we have money, yeah, we hit up the theater. So, when I walk into a tattoo parlor and I hand the artist a printout of what I want on me, it is no different than walking past the bar in a restaurant to my seat where I tell the waitress, "No, we don't drink. I do not want to sample your wine," or when I walk past the theater showing an inappropriate movie as I head toward the one showing Toy Story 3. Seriously, folks, your local Walmart is dirtier and more inappropriate than a tattoo parlor. If you don't believe me check out http://www.peopleofwalmart.com/.
Satanic and bad people do have tattoos. There is no denying it. I would dare say that in the past the vast majority of tattooees were less than friendly types. Remember when playing cards was a sin because the only people using them were in casinos and bars? Satanic people have a bible too, and they read it and practice what it says. It was written by Anton LaVey. Trust me, I have seen it and read it. Does that stop me from reading my Bible? No way. It is a bible, but it is not the same as my Bible. Just like my tattoos aren't the same as a bad person's tattoos. I think that is the big difference, and leads me right into my next point.
My body is the temple of the Holy Spirit. When I received Christ my body became rightfully His property. Over the years I have heard this verse used to tell Christians that all kinds of things are sinful. From the aforementioned pants on women and piercings, to tattoos and certain types of clothing. Most people totally disregard the fact that in context this verse is talking about sexual perversions and Paul is literally flabbergasted by it all and says, "WHAT!!!!!!!!??????????" As if to say, 'do you guys seriously not understand that your body is God's and you shouldn't use it that way!' But allow us to wrench the verse out of context (since it is hardly EVER used in context) and apply it to tattoos. No one should get a tattoo because that is putting graffiti on God's body. Now let's apply it to piercings. No one should get piercings because that is adding decoration on God's body. Now let's apply it to make-up. No one should wear make-up because that is making an improvement (usually) on God's body. Now let's apply it to hair cuts. No one should get hair cuts because that is altering God's body. Now let's get straight-up redonkulous and apply it to clothes...maybe we shouldn't wear them because we don't want to cover up God's glorious design? Before you massacre me, I understand that other portions of Scripture state the importance of proper garments. I was using that as an illustration to show the lunacy and the natural progression that comes from using that verse as a high horse.
Also, could someone please step up and show me one example in the Bible where the temple wasn't highly decorated? For Pete's peppers people, the Temple of Solomon would make the most lavish Catholic Church appear rundown.
So, I think it boils down to this: The Glory of God. Does what I do with my body glorify God? It is the same with everything. Does what I do with my time, money, emotions, glorify God? I think that my body does glorify God. My most important roles in this life are as a Father and a Husband. I have the names of my children on me...just like carrying a picture, the tattoos are a constant reminder that I am a father. I even put them in Japanese so that people can ask about them and I get a chance to talk about my kids. I have the name of my wife tattooed on my arm where everyone can see it...where I can constantly see it. Why? Because I am a husband and my heart belongs to Erin and I want everyone to know it. Sure, I wear a wedding ring, but men with wedding rings have affairs all the time because you can take them off. I can't remove my wife's name from my view, or from the view of someone else. That is how I want it.
Those of you who know me well know that for the past few years I have struggled greatly in my Christian life. This past June, when God started to get change my heart and we began attending Bible Baptist Church, I kept telling Erin, "I feel like I am finally awake. I feel like I have been walking asleep in my Christianity for so long...I am awake and things finally make sense." If I were to tell you how far my life had slipped, you would be shocked. I am shocked to remember it. And you know what, I fell before and I know that it is possible for me to fall again. And trust me, I never want to go down that road again. So God led me to some verses in Romans.
"And that, knowing the time, that now it is high time to awake out of sleep: for now is our salvation nearer than when we believed. The night is far spent, the day is at hand: let us therefore cast off the works of darkness, and let us put on the armour of light. Let us walk honestly, as in the day; not in rioting and drunkeness, not in chambering and wantonness, not in strife and envying. But put ye one the Lord Jesus Christ, and make not provision for the flesh, to fulfill the lusts thereof." Rom. 13:11-14
You know what? God woke me up. God changed my life. I need a testament in my life to that fact. I want to set up a marker in my life. I want a constant reminder that says: Hey, you're awake now buddy, things are different. Jesus made a difference, and you know the other road well.
I have it on my arm, where I can see it every single day for the rest of my life. I have already had the opportunity to share my story with two people at work.
You may not like tattoos...you may not like earrings...you may not like movie theaters, for all I know you may not like me, but I wanted to share what my thoughts were on a subject that has recently become dear to me.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Weakling
I do not particularly enjoy it when I am struggling. Whether it is physically, emotionally, mentally, or spiritually, I would much rather the sailing be smooth than rough. I really wish that I had everything figured out. I wish that my finances were in order, that more money was always coming in than was going out. I wish that I had retirement funds started and college funds for my kids. I wish that I did not have student loans and car loans to pay off. I really wish that I was perfect. I wish that my mind wouldn't wander. I wish that there weren't times when I coveted when others had. I wish that I could trust in God completely and never question Him. I wish that I never stretched the truth. I wish that my sarcastic mouth never got me in trouble. I wish I was more responsible, and that I had more self-control. I wish that I would never mess up. But I do. I struggle everyday, and some days I am ready to throw in the towel. I really wish that I were not so frail.
But then I am reminded of what God says in II Cor. 2:9. Everyone knows the first part of that verse. We see it on everything from bookmarks and bumper-stickers to plaques and banners: "My grace is sufficient for thee." But that is not where the verse ends. It goes on to say, "for my strength is made perfect in weakness." Paul goes on to say, "Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." What an encouragement this verse was to me today.
If I were perfect, God would not work in me, for I would not need Him to. If I were not so weak, I would never need to experience the strength of God working in my life. Maybe other people out there struggle with things as much as I do. Maybe sometimes it feels as if you cannot do anything right and you think, "why does everything seem so hard?" I think those are times where God is longing to show us His strength being made perfect through our weakness.
My prayer is that the power of Christ would work mightily in my life...because I am completely broken without it. My prayer is that He would show Himself powerful in your life as well. I know that this is short, but I hope that it can be an encouragement to someone who may be hurting.
But then I am reminded of what God says in II Cor. 2:9. Everyone knows the first part of that verse. We see it on everything from bookmarks and bumper-stickers to plaques and banners: "My grace is sufficient for thee." But that is not where the verse ends. It goes on to say, "for my strength is made perfect in weakness." Paul goes on to say, "Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." What an encouragement this verse was to me today.
If I were perfect, God would not work in me, for I would not need Him to. If I were not so weak, I would never need to experience the strength of God working in my life. Maybe other people out there struggle with things as much as I do. Maybe sometimes it feels as if you cannot do anything right and you think, "why does everything seem so hard?" I think those are times where God is longing to show us His strength being made perfect through our weakness.
My prayer is that the power of Christ would work mightily in my life...because I am completely broken without it. My prayer is that He would show Himself powerful in your life as well. I know that this is short, but I hope that it can be an encouragement to someone who may be hurting.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Idiot or Possessed?
My favorite author of all time is Fyodor Dostoevsky. If you have never read one of his books, then do it...now. This morning I was sitting near the bookshelf, drinking my coffee, and looking at my stack of Dostoevsky books. One of my favorites is called, "The Idiot." It is about a man with epilepsy. Right beneath that one was another one that I love called, "The Possessed." Then something dramatic happened...I began to think.
In our society, and based on our common definitions, being termed an 'idiot' means something quite different than being 'possessed'. When one thinks of an idiot, he thinks of someone who is stupid, juvenile, goofy, immature, or many times, just different. When one thinks of one who is possessed, he thinks of one who is controlled by something that is dwelling within. Nearly every time one of these terms is used it is used in a negative sense. For example, "My son's tantrum was so bad that I thought he was possessed." Or, "I don't see any dinosaur shaped ones!" "Oh, for crying out loud! They're in boxes, you idiot!"
In the first example, the child's behavior was so awful and unwarranted that the joke is to say it had to be induced by an indwelling force. In the second example, Rex is so simple that he fails to take into account the obvious.
Based on that...I think that Christians are supposed to be both idiots and possessed. I don't know...I'm just spit balling here. However, when I read through the Bible I find a slew of evidences of Christians being both. Point in case, which one of us wouldn't have thought Peter an idiot as he stepped out of the boat and onto the water? How about Jonah, as he told the sailors to throw him overboard into the sea? Or even Christ, as He willingly went to be crucified?
And then there is this question of being possessed. Certainly we see negative examples of this in the Bible, but what about the good? What about the men of God who were so wholly changed that people thought them crazy? The men whose actions were so out of character that there could be no question as to Who was controlling their life? What of John the Baptist, living in the wilderness? What of Stephen, speaking into the heavens as he was stoned? What of Paul, rejoicing while in prison? What of the apostles boldly facing persecution for their faith? Truly, these were men possessed.
I don't see too many idiots for Christ anymore. I don't know...maybe it is just me. When is the last time I have stepped out in faith against what was completely obvious to the world...to see what was unseen? I wonder if anyone has ever looked at my life and said, "Wow...that guy is completely nuts." And were later amazed as the picture of faith unfolded and God revealed His plan. Sometimes I see people out on the corner of some street preaching. That makes me uncomfortable. Sometimes, I think to myself, "that person is crazy." Maybe they are crazy. Maybe they are crazy enough about Jesus to do anything to expand his kingdom. Maybe they are crazy enough to put their pride in check to a degree that I cannot even imagine. Of course...they could be genuinely crazy...which would kind of ruin my whole thing here.
I also don't see too many people completely possessed by God. That doesn't mean that there aren't people like that. Remember, this blog is more about me than anything, and what I write is more a self-indictment then anything. So I guess what I am wondering is if people look at me and think, "okay, that it totally uncharacteristic...what is wrong with him?" But in a good way. Trust me, people have thought that about me before in a bad way, and chances are they will think it again. But wow...just inviting a friend to church is hard stuff sometimes. Striking up a conversation about fantasy football is easy, but try steering the conversation away from a game-saving field goal to a life-saving Savior...and woah...not easy. At least not for me. Why is that? Why were the disciples so possessed that they willingly faced death...preaching to the end...when today it is hard to get 50% of the church back on Sunday night and 25% back on Wednesday? I am not saying that church attendance always equals 'rightness' with God...because we all know people as backward as the day is long that would NEVER miss a church service...but I am using it to show a point. By and large we don't live as people that are possessed. I don't live as one that is possessed.
My prayer is that God will enable us to be a bunch of possessed idiots for Him in this world. I can look like an idiot on my own...but more as an embarrassment to my wife rather than as a glory to God. Apart from God I simply do not have what it takes to "lay my life down." God doesn't call many of us to lay our lives down literally...but He does call us to be aliens here. We should stick out. We shouldn't be comfortable. The world should look at us and think, "What a bunch of idiots. What would possess them to live like that, or act like that, or give things up like that, or do that, or defer to another like that, or serve like that, or love like that, or care like that, or do that, or not do that?"
Being possessed by an unwavering faith in Christ is the answer. I have faith...but does the world see it?
In our society, and based on our common definitions, being termed an 'idiot' means something quite different than being 'possessed'. When one thinks of an idiot, he thinks of someone who is stupid, juvenile, goofy, immature, or many times, just different. When one thinks of one who is possessed, he thinks of one who is controlled by something that is dwelling within. Nearly every time one of these terms is used it is used in a negative sense. For example, "My son's tantrum was so bad that I thought he was possessed." Or, "I don't see any dinosaur shaped ones!" "Oh, for crying out loud! They're in boxes, you idiot!"
In the first example, the child's behavior was so awful and unwarranted that the joke is to say it had to be induced by an indwelling force. In the second example, Rex is so simple that he fails to take into account the obvious.
Based on that...I think that Christians are supposed to be both idiots and possessed. I don't know...I'm just spit balling here. However, when I read through the Bible I find a slew of evidences of Christians being both. Point in case, which one of us wouldn't have thought Peter an idiot as he stepped out of the boat and onto the water? How about Jonah, as he told the sailors to throw him overboard into the sea? Or even Christ, as He willingly went to be crucified?
And then there is this question of being possessed. Certainly we see negative examples of this in the Bible, but what about the good? What about the men of God who were so wholly changed that people thought them crazy? The men whose actions were so out of character that there could be no question as to Who was controlling their life? What of John the Baptist, living in the wilderness? What of Stephen, speaking into the heavens as he was stoned? What of Paul, rejoicing while in prison? What of the apostles boldly facing persecution for their faith? Truly, these were men possessed.
I don't see too many idiots for Christ anymore. I don't know...maybe it is just me. When is the last time I have stepped out in faith against what was completely obvious to the world...to see what was unseen? I wonder if anyone has ever looked at my life and said, "Wow...that guy is completely nuts." And were later amazed as the picture of faith unfolded and God revealed His plan. Sometimes I see people out on the corner of some street preaching. That makes me uncomfortable. Sometimes, I think to myself, "that person is crazy." Maybe they are crazy. Maybe they are crazy enough about Jesus to do anything to expand his kingdom. Maybe they are crazy enough to put their pride in check to a degree that I cannot even imagine. Of course...they could be genuinely crazy...which would kind of ruin my whole thing here.
I also don't see too many people completely possessed by God. That doesn't mean that there aren't people like that. Remember, this blog is more about me than anything, and what I write is more a self-indictment then anything. So I guess what I am wondering is if people look at me and think, "okay, that it totally uncharacteristic...what is wrong with him?" But in a good way. Trust me, people have thought that about me before in a bad way, and chances are they will think it again. But wow...just inviting a friend to church is hard stuff sometimes. Striking up a conversation about fantasy football is easy, but try steering the conversation away from a game-saving field goal to a life-saving Savior...and woah...not easy. At least not for me. Why is that? Why were the disciples so possessed that they willingly faced death...preaching to the end...when today it is hard to get 50% of the church back on Sunday night and 25% back on Wednesday? I am not saying that church attendance always equals 'rightness' with God...because we all know people as backward as the day is long that would NEVER miss a church service...but I am using it to show a point. By and large we don't live as people that are possessed. I don't live as one that is possessed.
My prayer is that God will enable us to be a bunch of possessed idiots for Him in this world. I can look like an idiot on my own...but more as an embarrassment to my wife rather than as a glory to God. Apart from God I simply do not have what it takes to "lay my life down." God doesn't call many of us to lay our lives down literally...but He does call us to be aliens here. We should stick out. We shouldn't be comfortable. The world should look at us and think, "What a bunch of idiots. What would possess them to live like that, or act like that, or give things up like that, or do that, or defer to another like that, or serve like that, or love like that, or care like that, or do that, or not do that?"
Being possessed by an unwavering faith in Christ is the answer. I have faith...but does the world see it?
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
A Song for the Hard Times
"Praise God from Whom all blessings flow, praise Him all creatures here below, praise Him above ye heavenly host, praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost."
"His name is Jesus, precious Jesus. Lord Almighty, King of my heart, King of glory."
Today I just needed to sing. I don't know what you are going through, but I know what my family is going through. It is tough. I am not even going to describe today. Suffice it to say, when I put my bread in the toaster tonight and said, "Why does it smell like my toast is on fire? Oh, because it is," and saw that the bottom of my toast had caught fire, Erin and I just started laughing...because I really think that the only other option would have been tears.
This is a hard time. It is a hard time for a lot of people. So many of my friends are hurting. We are all struggling so hard to bear each other's burdens, all the while trying not to collapse beneath the weight of our own.
Our pastor, Jim Stady, brought a powerful message Sunday morning. He didn't know how this week would turn out for so many of us (and it is only Tuesday night!)...but God did. If you get a chance, read 2 Chronicles 20 1-30 sometime soon. While you're at it, contact Bible Baptist Church and get a copy of the sermon from last Sunday morning.
I am not going to try and preach via blog, but I want to quote one part of one verse. It comes from verse 12, "neither know we what to do: but our eyes are upon thee." This is King Jehoshaphat talking to God in reference to a conspiracy of nations that were gathered to attack Judah.
This week, I kind of feel like that. I know I am not alone. I kind of feel like saying, "Hey God...it's me...I'm stuck...and uh...it's all on You." Because really, if you think about it, it is.
Okay, I fibbed, I want to quote one more verse. It is verse 22, "And when they began to sing and to praise, the Lord set ambushments against the children of Ammon, Moab, and mount Seir, which were come against Judah; and they were smitten."
So today, since there was nothing else to do, I began to sing. And I sang and I sang. And pretty soon God became bigger than my problems. Even though there are still plenty of things wrong, they became overshadowed by all that is right. I began to realize that with God consequences can become blessings; hardships, delights; and sorrows our greatest joys.
I am praying for all of us today. I don't know what you might be going through, but I know what I am going through...and I know that my situation is not terribly unique.
I think, that no matter what you are going through, you should start to sing and praise. Let God lift up your head, because frankly, sometimes He is the only One Who can.
"His name is Jesus, precious Jesus. Lord Almighty, King of my heart, King of glory."
Today I just needed to sing. I don't know what you are going through, but I know what my family is going through. It is tough. I am not even going to describe today. Suffice it to say, when I put my bread in the toaster tonight and said, "Why does it smell like my toast is on fire? Oh, because it is," and saw that the bottom of my toast had caught fire, Erin and I just started laughing...because I really think that the only other option would have been tears.
This is a hard time. It is a hard time for a lot of people. So many of my friends are hurting. We are all struggling so hard to bear each other's burdens, all the while trying not to collapse beneath the weight of our own.
Our pastor, Jim Stady, brought a powerful message Sunday morning. He didn't know how this week would turn out for so many of us (and it is only Tuesday night!)...but God did. If you get a chance, read 2 Chronicles 20 1-30 sometime soon. While you're at it, contact Bible Baptist Church and get a copy of the sermon from last Sunday morning.
I am not going to try and preach via blog, but I want to quote one part of one verse. It comes from verse 12, "neither know we what to do: but our eyes are upon thee." This is King Jehoshaphat talking to God in reference to a conspiracy of nations that were gathered to attack Judah.
This week, I kind of feel like that. I know I am not alone. I kind of feel like saying, "Hey God...it's me...I'm stuck...and uh...it's all on You." Because really, if you think about it, it is.
Okay, I fibbed, I want to quote one more verse. It is verse 22, "And when they began to sing and to praise, the Lord set ambushments against the children of Ammon, Moab, and mount Seir, which were come against Judah; and they were smitten."
So today, since there was nothing else to do, I began to sing. And I sang and I sang. And pretty soon God became bigger than my problems. Even though there are still plenty of things wrong, they became overshadowed by all that is right. I began to realize that with God consequences can become blessings; hardships, delights; and sorrows our greatest joys.
I am praying for all of us today. I don't know what you might be going through, but I know what I am going through...and I know that my situation is not terribly unique.
I think, that no matter what you are going through, you should start to sing and praise. Let God lift up your head, because frankly, sometimes He is the only One Who can.
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