First

God has been doing a lot in my life lately. I have needed it for some time. I am going to keep this short, frankly, because I don't really have much to say at the moment. I really hope that you can find some use for this blog...I hope that it can be a blessing.

I like this idea of first. I enjoy reading articles on Fox Sports, scrolling down to the comments section, and seeing it blazing like the sun: "first!" I always wonder what prize is attached to being the first to post. What is really great is when the poster has their profile blocked. No one can see who was first anyway.

I think that I do that a lot in my own life. I sit by and look for opportunities to be at the top of things that do not really matter at all. I go the extra mile, and if no one notices, I draw their attention to the fact. It is funny, because I even have this thought process that I go through. For example, the other night I cleaned the living room and the kitchen while Erin was away. I told myself that I was not going to say anything to her about it because I had done it to be kind, not to be thanked. Not more than five minutes after she got home, I blurted out, "did you see everything I cleaned?" It was bothering me that much that she had not said anything. It was my way of saying: FIRST!

I think that God knows when I'm "first" and when I'm not. I am afraid that I oftentimes lose the blessing from Him when I pridefully seek the gratitude of others.